Is there something wrong?

have you ever felt like that there is something wrong with you when you see people who are younger than you get into relationships? for the past 21 years, i have been single. no status change. no progress with any special someone. no something. it’s a sticky situation for me when people talk about BGR. it’s not like i dont want to talk about it; i just dont have anything to talk about. and because i dont have anything to talk about, i choose to divert away from this topic.

dont tell me to wait because waiting is what i have been doing for a long time. maybe im not interesting enough. maybe im not funny enough. maybe im not petite enough. maybe im not skinny enough. maybe im not pretty enough. maybe im not girly enough. maybe im not attractive enough.

people actually turn homo because of similar situations like mine? i really wonder..okie not like im entertaining thoughts of turning gay because i love guys, generally speaking. but im starting to doubt my ability to actually love someone. like wholeheartedly. like what dramas always say when you think about the person all the time. when the first person you think of is the person when something bad or good happens. i havent had the chance to actually experience that because i dont hang out with guys often.

this is what happens when youre alone in the office and suddenly get news of younger friends being in a relationship. oh well, time to knock off from work.