recently, ive been spending alot of money. my dad’s money, to be specific. i feel bad. very bad. im turning 21 next year and i still have to depend on him for my monthly allowance. monthly allowance, i can scrimp, but i cant do that when it comes to paying school fees, driving lessons and school books. too expensive. i dont even have 500 in my bank account right now. yep.

i told myself to pay back the money, at least for the driving lessons.

sometimes, i wish my dad wasnt that old, at least he doesnt need to still pay for my education fees even after he’s retired. if he was still working, the burden wouldn’t be that heavy, because income is still coming in. but right now, in reality, income is not coming in, and he has to depend on his savings + retirement pension.

if i had some kind of talent, you know, if anything, be it designing, writing, acting, or whatsoever, i could make my life and my parents’ lives a little bit easier. i probably wouldnt need to depend on them to give me my monthly allowance.

but i guess reality bites.

you know how i’ve been talking (or whining, if you put it in a bad way) about how and why i havent managed to find someone? what if that someone is living on the other side of the world? what if the one for me is actually living in Africa or in Venice or something? seems ridiculous, but could it be possible? like this couple is meant to be but they couldnt meet because they’re a thousand miles apart. fate could play a joke on them, make them wait until they’re 40, rich enough to travel, one of them actually travelling to the other’s country. they meet accidentally and fall in love. and happily ever after.

LOL okay i was bullshitting. ignore me if you will.

im just waiting for my soup and crops to be done. half an hour to go and i have another 6 more hours before i have to wake up. bahhhh.

it was their annual D&D last night. it started at 10pm and ended at 3am. Sakae Sushi is actually under Apex Pal, so that explains why the dinner started so late. i guess they couldnt afford to close shop since it’s F&B. would lose out quite a sum of money if the whole island’s outlets closed!

the dinner was about 500 pax. and the people were a crazy and fun crowd. maybe it’s partly because the alcohol was working. but of course this wouldnt have happened without the emcee’s doing. Wayne Chua was the Master of Ceremony that night and boy, was he good! i actually think hes rather charming despite his weird hairdo and eyeliner hahahaha.

bad thing is, once i think a guy is cute, my mouth is automatically filled up with marbles, like i cant talk. loss for words. cant even look into the eye. bahhhh. also, hes a smoker. mehh. the funny thing was, when the show ended and before he went out for a puff, he was like ’smoke?’ and did the ’smoker V’ sign to me. then when Charmaine saw, she was like ‘ehh you know who is she not? Evelyn’s sister leh’. and he immediately turned around and said, ‘oh dont smoke dont smoke’. LOL.

if you want to see how he looks like, this is the link: http://www.westend.com.sg/emcees.html

i must say that hes not photogenic at all.

p.s he added me on facebook after Charmaine tagged me on the photo. hehehehe. gawd, i looked horrible in there. i was so effing tired lah.

in case some of you didnt know, i went to Genting Highlands last week, Wednesday to Friday. i went with my folks. i guess in a way, im trying to be nice to my parents because age is catching up on the both of them, especially my dad. and of course to get away from the city (and not to mention the humidity and heat), the cool weather is really a great welcome.

although i got to be the lil girl for the 3 days, it tend to get a little boring because all you can do is to try sneak into the casino with them by pretending to look like youre above 21 and eat your ass off in restaurants. i was stopped a few times for ID check, which always result in me leaving the premise because ‘my passport is in the hotel room’. times which i didnt get check, i played the slot machine using my dad’s card and got bored. can you believe it? i got bored. partly because i was losing (my dad’s) money, but also because i know im never lucky when it comes to gambling.

not only you lose money (if youre not on a winning streak), you become a very heavy passive smoker. omg. probably 90% of the people in there were smoking. i wonder how my parents managed to breatheeee in there.

and guess where did my nights go? cooped up in the hotel room, watching teevee. hey, they got pretty awesome shows there. Vision Four is the channel. i watched Backwoods and Poseidon hahaha. Backwoods is one of those stupid thriller movies where they keep you so tensed during the movie and leave you disappointed when the show ends whereas Poseidon keeps you so tensed during the movie yet leave you well, relieved, though a tad sad because of those who didnt escape from the evil hands of fate.

im bored. so im out!

so it is already past mid October. Christmas is nearing :) although i dont exactly celebrate Christmas because it’s not my religion, ive always loved Christmas, probably even more than Chinese New Year. while i may not get extra money from all the visitings, the Christmas atmosphere overrules CNY :)) what would make it even better would be Singapore snowing (okay that would never happen, so lets say if i’d travel, i would travel to somewhere that would snow during Christmas period), together with the other half, playing in the snow..listening to Christmas carols..okay im totally dreaming.

a girl can dream! bleh.

well, i guess until the time i can experience it for myself, i will keep on dreaming :)

updating because i feel there’s a need to update. dont want to leave any long gap in between entries for it would leave a blank in between my life. my memory’s that bad. yeah, i even have to think about what i ate yesterday.

ive been studying for exams, or so to say ive been attempting to study LOL. last paper’s tomorrow at 10am. Customer Experience Management. i hope i score well for this. project’s was a terrible mess.

celebrated hui mei’s birthday on her birthday. HAHA. though it was only the three of us, it was still fun :D bought her a pooh bear. i want one toooooooo. we had a night picnic by the rooftop at vivo. pictures are up on facebook. fun times :D

okay, better get back to the books. shall finish off the last paper with a bang! haha.

this is so new to me. having friends who are couples. hmmmmm. i know i should just be myself but how do i do that if im green with envy? =X

is it retarded to feel left out when im with my friends? everyone of them are in pairs. make that a girl-boy pair. ive always thought that things and people come in pairs. to make things worse, the said pairs here are the girl-boy type. im starting to avoid going out with them because i dont want to feel left out. occasionally, they may come and ‘disturb’ me, but yeah, they’d return to their partner at the end of the day. anyway, just so you know, none of these pairs are couples, period. there’re two potential pairs though.

as i mentioned earlier, ive always believed that people/things come in pairs. this explains why i had problems even with my secondary school clique which has 5 of us in it. being secondary school kids, we had childish quarrels and arguments. things were quite bad that we needed to have a talk. all 5 of us. we sat down and each of us took turns to pour out everything. we started throwing out stuff that we were unhappy about, whether it’s about the group or individually.

dont judge me! pfft.

i scored a miserable 61/100 for my design proposal. i told you (myself) that im not creative. the lecturer probably thought there was nothing innovative about my proposal. mehhhhh. the highest in class was 88/100. when i check out their ideas, i’d be like ‘why didnt i think of that?!’ gotta burn and drink my notes for CEM. oh wait, the notes and books are hardly any worth drinking. exams questions would be more of applications of theory learnt in class. gawd.

on the brighter note, i score 24/30 for my 2nd econs test. that’s a 5-mark improvement from the first test hehe. i need to get 37/50 for my exam alone to score an overall Distinction for the module. any tuition teacher available here?

i think im going to mug at the library everyday for the whole of next week. im hoping to get at least a Distinction for one of the modules – im taking four – so yeah. im not even aiming for a High Distinction!!

sometimes you get too caught up with life that you forget the people you left behind.

i got my new baby. hes so pretty and white. fast and slick. loving every single inch of him already. hehehehe.

but i feel guilty for dumping my old darling. he went through three years with me, ups and downs, throughout my poly life. how could i dump him just like that? are those three years nothing?

hahahaha, im exaggerating. so ignore me.